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21!

my birthday was so so special. so many amazing people came to see me and spend time with me. i really just wanted to cry, everyone was so very nice and showered me with gifts and affection, i really just want to cry thinking about it. felt so loved and happy, and still do. so big thank you to the universe for giving me the most lovely and wonderful birthday of my life so far <3. the next night i went to chilis and got a delicious el nino margarita and then went downtown with hector, michele, matt, and matts mama and tim. and it was a very happy time, not that i've never been to the tavern, but its much less stressful with a legit ID. and then dinner with drinks sunday night, tried a new cocktail, and then yesterday went to the liq to buy the ingredients for it and made some cocktails for myself. and tonight i am having a cocktail party with joshy. he is letting me play bartender and cocktail waitress  to fill the void in my life that joblessness has left me with. i think if i am careful with my money, i can go another six months without really NEEDING a job, but ive been thinking more and more that it might be nice to get back in the workforce. mainly just to meet new friends, i've lost touch with most of my friends from my old job..

anyways, i still have the flip cup table so i feel like we should do it again.

i love everyone.

Almost Birthday Time

so strange my birthday is in 9 days. 21 is one of those things that i always assumed would never actually get here. but its coming and coming fast and i am getting super excited for my party! we are going to have tons of homemad pizzas customized for your enjoyment like these:

 

and most likely we will make cupcakes of some sort and there will be music and a fire and all of my favorite people. and i'm planning on being a fantastic hostess so i will be trying to keep my blood alcohol level as low as possible. and MS MCGHEE is coming, so i of course don't want to embarrass myself in front of the best person in the world. i still can't believe she has agreed to attend, i feel like i booked the spice girls for my 2nd grade birthday party or something... meaning that it will be the party of the year of course. so excited to have all of my friends in one place and get to enjoy them all loving me. and having something to look forward to is nice. and is also making me get lots of things accomplished that i have been putting off for years, like painting my bedroom and bathroom, which so desperately need sprucing. must get back to packing up all my stuff so i can paint tomorrow :)